Fear to be Damaged!

Photography by Larayia
(*u might wanna press play on the video below before you read this*)

One of those Days...you just feel like you want to be all alone! actually maybe with someone! but somebody, you care about or somebody you actually give a meeky nutta about what they have to say! Anyhoo...its funny how people keeps coming and going, in and out of your life. Its kind of like that alicia keys song! Fallin. You once loved them, but they were too blind to see and now that you mooved on... they are coming back, before you even know it ,...theyll be out again! Is it that hard to find someone that stays by you and stays true! hmmm... for some it seems to be possible and very easy indeed but for others looks like its much harder and impossible! Sometimes you can be afraid to let your heart open for so long that, all the inpurities it has cope with might cause it to close! and probably for a very long time! if your heart closes then you might, go pass loads of great opportunities, and loose out! and even though i am a strong believer into, " everything happens for a reason!" i still think we are our biggest obstacles and we make choices that directs and guides our destiny! its those choices, that makes our life better or worst! * lets not loose the point here!!! we are talking about ...feelings, love, sentiments, affection not goals or what not*...everyone needs time to think but some just spend time thinking and it leads to more thinking and more thinking and more planning when does it actually end and takes action!* talking about myself right now! * lol! My heart seem to be so willing and open but once someones gets near it .. it shuts down like an eyelid! not that im doing it on purpose but its just hard to just allow a strange being, somewhere where there is a high risk you`ll get hurt! probably its not only my fault, maybe it will have to take more than just a smile and a compliment to get near it ... maybe persistance, and tact will help. Somebody craving enough for it will know what to do or how to open the fence. For now it stays guarded under high security so that it dont get damaged!

wow i didn't say much! because im not sure who will read this but

still feel like i said too much! :o

meeks x