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Photography by Daniel Barnett and Azara N Emenyeon

iM IN LOV wiith youu

(please scroll down and press play on the song, then start reading)

say your in love with me...., coz im so in love baby, and i dnt care what he or she say... you took my heart in your hand, and since then ive been so in love baby, and i dnt care what your people say or what my mother say... one day your gonna understand, when im with you i dnt think or care if they there...thats being soo in love baby, i want you to say you in love with me. im almost scared to touch your hand, scared of what could happen ,...i just want to breath next to you, but i don't know if i should do, the taste of it could not be good, like a drug turning me into some obnoxious fool... im so in love baby, my lips are not strong enough to tell the truth, im so in love baby just wish a day will come when i will share this, im so in love baby i don't care if thats my last wish...

he took that heart of me and since then he owes me, he doesn wana let go or give me back what belongs to me... to be honest i don't know if i want it back... it beats much nicer over there with him...just as long as he takes care of it , im cool with him having it for ever,.. im in love him and he wants me, no no no he is in love with me, so in love with me, he can only be in love with me...and if he isnot ill make him in love with me... because im so in love baby, i dont wanna loose this game...this is too easy, he told me this poetry and walk away, though i would run away but instead im just walking towards him(** moe to come**)

☆☆

Fear to be Damaged!

Photography by Larayia
(*u might wanna press play on the video below before you read this*)

One of those Days...you just feel like you want to be all alone! actually maybe with someone! but somebody, you care about or somebody you actually give a meeky nutta about what they have to say! Anyhoo...its funny how people keeps coming and going, in and out of your life. Its kind of like that alicia keys song! Fallin. You once loved them, but they were too blind to see and now that you mooved on... they are coming back, before you even know it ,...theyll be out again! Is it that hard to find someone that stays by you and stays true! hmmm... for some it seems to be possible and very easy indeed but for others looks like its much harder and impossible! Sometimes you can be afraid to let your heart open for so long that, all the inpurities it has cope with might cause it to close! and probably for a very long time! if your heart closes then you might, go pass loads of great opportunities, and loose out! and even though i am a strong believer into, " everything happens for a reason!" i still think we are our biggest obstacles and we make choices that directs and guides our destiny! its those choices, that makes our life better or worst! * lets not loose the point here!!! we are talking about ...feelings, love, sentiments, affection not goals or what not*...everyone needs time to think but some just spend time thinking and it leads to more thinking and more thinking and more planning when does it actually end and takes action!* talking about myself right now! * lol! My heart seem to be so willing and open but once someones gets near it .. it shuts down like an eyelid! not that im doing it on purpose but its just hard to just allow a strange being, somewhere where there is a high risk you`ll get hurt! probably its not only my fault, maybe it will have to take more than just a smile and a compliment to get near it ... maybe persistance, and tact will help. Somebody craving enough for it will know what to do or how to open the fence. For now it stays guarded under high security so that it dont get damaged!

wow i didn't say much! because im not sure who will read this but

still feel like i said too much! :o

meeks x

DARE TO BE DIFFERENT!

Rock'n'Rule!i once read "he that think like a star, walk like a star, act like a star and dress like a star..someday soon will be "the" star! that was my quote for today! ive been compared to grace jones a few times and i admit.. -my first reaction weren really nice about it- in most cases i felt insulted and now i feel even worst for feeling like that at the time! As an up and cuming model...ive learnt to be open minded...and read things deeper than usual. And by doing that, i came to realise that grace jones is a strong character and a talented personnage. She is more than just a woman with man like... features! The look that she is known for {manly} is the look she gave herself. This was a decision she made and indeed a very clever one! i would even go and say it was a very marketable idea to give herself a status and category which is very rare and shocking to some but which makes others just love her. And its also the reason why now, she is in the history of mannequinat. This made me realise than in modelling i will have to give myself a status, a pedestral, a position which will seperate me from the rest! the WHOLE world wants to be a model today! and there will always be better, more talented, more successful, more edgy, taller, slimmer, or somebody better looking than you *told by auntie linda* therefor you need to do what ur implied or what you wish to do the best that you can and perform it in your most unique way! you sometimes have to go and be things your worried people will not like you to be but as long as its what you wish to be , then put your head up high and be "IT" because you only live once and you dnt live for others but yourself and God. In other words people that are famous and successful or even legendary today are people that looked outside the box, followed their heart, worked hard were determined and most importantly DARED TO BE DIFFERENT!

mEEKS <3>

F.BARBIE

ITS ALL ABOUT "the" UNDER WHERE....

why can't we just wear underwears to go out? when i say wear underwears ...we all do already *well most of us anyways* but i mean wear them alone with no "over" wear! i think underwears are much more interesting than clothes, and whats the point in spending soo much money on some of them sometimes, when you can't even show case them! can you wear underwears without looking "vulgaire"? *french for sleazy* i believe yes! it all depends on how you carry yourself with it! and also the reason why you wear them..if its to attrack, create a reaction or just because it makes you feel good just like wearing your favourite tee shirts makes you feel good! also the type you wear and how you wear it! im crazy in love with underwears and i could walk around all the freaking time in them if i could! feeling more confortable than wearing a huge jumper with baggy jeans. THE hottest underwears right now is the new collection of victoria`s secret and the armani`s underwear , where posh is modelling for the campaign! they're just Fabz! its all about the underwears! THIS IS MY FASHION PREDICTION..in the years to come designers will start including underwears into their collections more often! less is more! covering yourself up does not make you a saint, or a righteous!

mEEKS

F.Barbie <3

Daniel Barnett's photography

a couple of punches, and a black eye is it the end of the WORLD?

a lil Resume about the story :

it took me a very long time to talk about this story, because i was worried about how people will react,..but to be honest this is my freaking blog and i say what the hell i like here! FREE TO SPEAK MY MIND! Anyhoo going into the subject, as the whole world knows already, the story about Chris Brown and rihanna is getting ridiculous now...we've been hearing soo many different stories!But the most consistent one was the one from TMZ so far! Rihana has been beaten up by Chris Brown in the car on their way back from the pre-grammy award party...from whats been said rihanna and Chris brown had an arguement in Chris' car about a text message Chris' got from another women. This arguement, got out of hand and Rihanna apparently faked a phone call telling someone that Chris was dropping her off and they should call the police. Chris then got mad, and said "im going to kill you" then started beatin on her , when she threw the key of the engine out the window to get him off her, that made him furious and the whole thing just went ...down the sheezayy!


My opinion about this lil story:

Ok...i never really been a fan of Chris Brown to be honest, but for some reason im supporting him. Chris brown (CB) is 19, Robyn Rihanna Fenty (Ri) is 21. From the beginning this relationship has been odd...she was claiming that she weren't going out with him, until he said they were...anyhoo its been a year and something now...He attacked her! HE DID WRONG TO HIT ON A WOMAN...that was a total stupid thing to do...BUT...i feel very sorry for him... the whole world is agaisnt him , saying domestic violence etc etc , and forgetting the young man is 19 not even legal to get into a night club yet. there is a million of girls like RI getting beaten up by they're boyfreinds, we never hear them gettin into court! There is wifes, mothers and many more getting beaten up by their husband we never hear so much fuss about it!!!
there is even BABIES such as baby P and etc being killed punched , burnt and etc, and its over
a couple of punches and a pinch your going to end the boys life???


[this ACTUALLY HURTS ME TO DO THIS .....BUT I GOT TO]
BUT THESE ARE CHILDREN THAT SUFFERED WAY MORE


i would not even go deep into the story but god knows what they went through! they deserve the media and way more attention than a girlfriend being beaten up by her loving boyfriend!
we also got people like Jade goodie Dying over Terminal Cancer, she only got weeks to live, and children in Africa, India, China, Portugal, Brazil, Irac etc dying...
what happened to nick carter beating Paris Hilton when they were dating? lol i know this sounds stupid lool so well just pass on that but yh...Rihanna is a big girl she will survive and even doe i didn like her at one point ! i give her A very HIGH FIVE! for brushing this off and getting back with him! she could of been a total bitch and just make the whole thing worst for him but her love for him helped her to find a place in her heart to forgive him! and das beautiffull...everybody should be forgiven at least... its the least we can do! the boy is young and god knows what he's been coping with ..and being in the public eye is not something very easy!



i know what its like to make a mistake in your life and have no one on your side, when everybody hates you for what you did and its like your not human and not even allowed to make an error! they just jump down your throat as if you killed someone! and its the worst feeling in the WORLD! we've been forgiven many times in our lives but its like when it comes to be others turn to be forgiven we're heartless.



at least some can! PEACE ( not done)
im sorry to say life FREAKING GOES ON>>>>...

NOW A COUPLE OF FACTS:
CB is being accused of threats for saying "im going to kill you" das something that everybody say ...and also what happened to when Jay Z said loud and clear that CB is a dead walking man!! and that he messed with the wrong crew for what he did! thats a much bigger threat to me! :

CB handed himself to the police, so techniqualy he knew he did something wrong , and i believe that was a way to show that he got back to he senses and realised

RI has been texting CB after the assaults to find out if he is ok! well if my boyfriend was to hit me i dnt think i would be even wanting to speak to him for a very long time... are u crazy? love or not love!!! not gonn happen!

RI pretended to speak to someone asking the person to call the police for him?? why would your do that??? kmt!

CB and RI are back together in one of Sean Comb's house (*P diddy*) why would you get back with him so soon if you weren't a lil guilty?

RI has got a lil reputation of a POSSESSIV girl friend, with rumours about leona lewis, Jordin sparks, etc and of a diva like star with media and press

CB apologised end off! this will be his lesson! so people should leav him the heck alone kmt!

may god bless both of them!

xx

watch this lmaooo

this diet is killing me!

ITS BEEN A WEEK NOW!
Ive decided to go on a diet.. for modelling purposes! my aim is size 8 since ima size 10/12....hard to believe yes i know.. thanks to my height! anyhoo...
ive been replacing my beloved KEBABZ and CHAWARMAR with
meal such as this below....

this was my lunch today! eurghhh
i was not impressed trust me :( i hate onions and there was some in there lol
number two..i use to always ask myself what.. do people mean when they say bad
or good coffee? well today i found out!
this COFFEE! was totally detestable! really disgusting...oh my god! say no more!
anyways apart from that... THANKS TO ""EVVVIIEE EVE" CAPITAL LETTERS lol ** so she wont kill me lol ** we did an incredible job cleaning the new facebook up lol for future purposes! soon shall come New pictures, new post, news, and etc loads more which will help you understand why ive got 2 facebooks...for now we working on it! and she edited these lovely pics for me wicked !!!! http://www.myspace.com/enitano...



and the HIPPPIE lol * dnt ask,... if u dnt know the why of that picture that means , you aint ready *


ok tomorow is a long day at uni and another shoot ! need to get paid so im just gonna head to sleep seeya mwah xx MEEKS

SHOUT OUT TO MAYA ANGELOU

PHENOMENAL WOMAN
by Maya Angelou

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them
They think I'm telling lies.
I say
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips
The stride of my steps
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please
And to a man
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees
Then they swarm around me
A hive of honey bees.
I say
It's the fire in my eyes
And the flash of my teeth
The swing of my waist
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say
It's in the arch of my back
The sun of my smile
The ride of my breasts
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say
It's in the click of my heels
The bend of my hair
The palm of my hand
The need of my care.
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That's me.

to the VALENTINES MIII SONNNG!!!!!!!!!

I LOVEEEEEE IT! another shout out to nathanou...x

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KISSES! VALENTINES DAY IS CUMIN

WOHOOOO WER ABOUT TO KISS
but as evie eve says :
"girl, you kicked all your valentines to the curve mayne...you dust them under your feet"
hahahah *private joke*
im just gonna go to sleep ! ^_^
xx MEEKS

TANDIWE ma couzine!

an adorable lil monster...


she is my lil sunshine, she makes me lauff..so much looooooool
she is so intelligent, HILARIOUS, energetic...and talkative lol
you never get bored with her :D... she is also very inprevisible..

check this looooooooool
HAHAHAHAHAHA
THIS BEFORE THE RAMPAGE...

DURING THE RAMPAGE....

AND LOOK.....HAHAHAHAAH AFTER THE RAMPAGE...LOL

AWWW I LOVE HER AND MISS HER SO SO SO MUCH! THE LIL BISOUS I USE TO GT
BEFORE BED TIME !!!
TOO BAD SHE IS IN PARIS :(

i jus love shampoos ^_^

woke up and felt like washin the hurr ... while doin it my sis walked in with
a cam and took a pic!
was bored and looked quite decent so i posted it on here :P
as i sed **was boredd**
xx MEEKS

MALICKA THE MODEL hosting club20

this is a picture i had to put up here lool
this was my first night at club20 and it was WICKEDD!
SAY NO MORE!
which reminds me to say a big THANK YOU to...
chennize, latoya, rissikat, evie eve * even doe she misbehaved tut she knows wat i mean lol :P*
and chyna, rae, kieta... and many more you guys were fantastic man!
so much hapenned on that night and i was litterally about to cancel because of all the drama
but as you can see it happened !!! and it was MAGNIFIQUE!

I MUST BE MAD TO PUT THIS PIC UP !
I LOOK LIKE IVE BEEN DANCING SINCE MORNING LOL



BUT OH WELL LOL SHOUT OUT TO CHYN CHYN! MWAH<3



NOW ITS TIME TO LOOK OUT FOR the first BLINDFOLD MEH!
the official after valentines day party to be held at club20 again
on the 20th of february 2009 NOT TO BE MISSED!!!
this will be my last party for a while lol its exaustin lool
so please be there! mwah xx MEEKS

NO IM NOT A SMOKER lol JUST WANTED TO HAV FUN!

HERE is a picture of me edited on photoshop!
this picture has created loads of fuss, questions and disapointments lol
**well was my aim but it went a bit to far lol** so thats why im posting this
to let everyone know it was AJOKE lol

couple of things i lov lol

hey lovelies!

well... in addition to http://smaliboo.skyrock.com/ http://malickathemodel.blogspot.com/....after all the talk, me and keisha had about it ..i finally decided to create one! lol wow and i have to admit it aint such a bad idea! not to worry i still will write articles in both of them! this is just a little official article to welcome you here ! mwah x
meeky meeks! <3

iim "THE" FRENCH BARBIIE UP IN HURRR...

FACT!!! loool *shout ou to nathan;)*

this is how we does..iit!